Sleep sleep sleep
Hit the pillow once I'm home,
Wake up when the sun is high in the noon.
What did I dream of last night?
Adventure and beauty and fun
In a place so different from here and now.

Watch listen play
iPhone games in the crowded trains
Tv programs about fun and unexplored wide-open spaces.
Crack jokes with friends
Maybe if I just keep that smile on my face
I can mask the aching hole in my heart.

Cornered like a spitting wildcat with no escape.

Home seems like another pigeonhole in an apartment block. I can hear my neighbours from my bathroom pipes, walking along the corridor outside my bedroom window.

It's tall buildings everywhere. And people! Everyone rushing. So many vehicles on the road.. Ads everywhere I look. Shops and stalls with their colorful merchandise. Salespeople calling out to me. A different food smell around every corner nowhere to sit on the buses and trains train's arriving in one minutes I have to rush everyone's rushing I'm late everyone's talking oh the incessant chatter!

I feel like throwing up.