When it's more than I can take I just want to run away. It may seem like I'm here but really, I've run away in my mind. Avoiding you shutting you out. Answering in monosyllables not looking you in the eye. Every single day. Since when have I turned into this person? Or is this the real me inside?

Maybe it is that I'm just not capable of love or forgiveness or kindness towards someone whose behavior isn't up to my expectations? Even my own mother...?